Gone Too Soon

Michael jackson, Album : Dangerous.

Like a comet
Blazing 'cross the evening sky
Gone too soon

Like a rainbow
Fading in the twinkling of an eye
Gone too soon

Shiny and sparkly
And splendidly bright
Here one day
Gone one night

Like the loss of sunlight
On a cloudy afternoon
Gone too soon

Like a castle
Built upon a sandy beach
Gone too soon

Like a perfect flower
That is just beyond your reach
Gone too soon

Born to amuse, to inspire, to delight
Here one day
Gone one night

Like a sunset
Dying with the rising of the moon
Gone too soon
Gone too soon

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THE CHAPTER 1 :: The end of a beginning.

“The airtel mobile you are trying is currently busy. To leave a voice SMS, “

He pressed the red button. The message did irritate him. It’s been 3 days, and he could not get the person on the other side of the phone to talk to him.

He reclined on the blue chair. The chair felt comfortable. He laid his hands over the armrest, held it and it seemed he wanted a holding hand. Leaning back, he tried to relax, but those memories kept on coming. He tried to switch the thoughts that came in, but one thought gave way to another. His head felt heavy. He wanted a break.

The window on his side opened to green fields. The red sun was seen sinking to the fields at a distance. Thick films of wind flew in once in a while, and this time, pushing down a stack of papers carelessly placed at one side of the corner table. He looked down to see one small piece of paper, pale yellow in colour, slowly coming to a stop, near his feet, being pushed by the wind. He felt the paper staring at him.

He stood up, walked slowly to the toilet, and washed his face.

“ I have grown old,” Thought he.

He took his towel and wiped off small drops of water on the mirror. He remembered the number of times he did that, whenever he wanted to call it a day. He didn’t want to do it again. He looked out of the toilet window. A small spider was weaving the web.

“Another life into this world” he thought. Striving to live, striving to catch the prey.

A lean sarcastic grin came to his face. His head was feeling heavier. He walked slowly to the hall.

“My house. My dream. ”

He used to believe in dreams. He believed living one’s dreams was the essence of life.

Well, he used to believe.

Walking out of his house, he gave a thousand rupee note to the familiar beggar he met on the street. He walked straight to the skyscraper nearby, without looking back at the eyes of the beggar he always wanted to watch.

At the lift, he stared at the small kid with the kitten. He remembered his childhood, when he used to play hide and seek. He wondered why the sight of the child did not bring him happiness.

By the time it was the topmost floor, he was alone in the lift. Walking out, he paused a moment, and watched the lift doors close.

“Closed.” He thought.

Taking the stairs to the roof top, he stared at the sky. The sun had disappeared. The fields has turned brown.

“And they call it the dusk”

He remembered he was born at dusk.

Slowly, he climbed the parapet.

And yes,

Without even looking down, he took a step into the air.

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The Sweet Little Thing

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The Sweet Little Thing is safe home.

I have never been so relieved.

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break down

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Fuckin untitled.

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Nothing lasts forever.

I agree.

.

But why is it always like this?

That it had to die the very moment it was born?

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That one poem.

Let the roads wind

all through the night

Let us flirt with the wind

all through the night

Let there be fire in me

to light up the night

Let there be a holding hand

to say its alright

Let there be sun at dusk

to keep an eye on us

Let there be moon at night

to wish us all the luck

Let there be little arguments

and there be silence

Let there be a bit of smoke

when you hit the low

Let the time fly by

as it never seem to slow down

Let there be you on my side

and let me be at peace

Let me keep on driving

Till i feel i am tired.

Let me keep on driving

Till i am alone again.

of green roads and a four wheeler.

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I just cant get anything to write.

I tried hard.

I did.

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Not too fast.

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Not too fast.

Slow Down.

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The hole and the way.

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where there is a hole, there is a way.

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:D

of yellow flags and a hundred miles.

Had a good great time.

Now I am scared. Things happened so fast. Things that has happened fast last short. real short.

I dont want to.

Captain, you may raise the yellow flag now.

period.

Supersaturated

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I just realized i am super saturated with tech things.

well, I spend a day with the asian civilisations museum, learnt the history of south asia and south east asia, sat by the river, had a beer, walked down, got into another museum, took a bus, roamed around the city.

I need to do this a couple of more days so that i am desaturated, that i stop seeing robots and batteries in my dreams, that i stop checking the roughness of the glass that i drink, a design factor for designing a robotic arm best suited to lift the glass, that i stop observing the movement of the facial muscles of a girl when she talks, because I have been thinking of making a robot with facial features. I need to see other dreams, need to enjoy that glass of beer, and have to be in a frame of mind to enjoy the beauty of a girl.

Well, too much of anything is bad enough. It has been, a bit too much, even in my standards. Whatever be the consequences, However "URGENT" people say things are,

I dont care !!

In fact,

My body is too weak that I cant care..

lol

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I am not being racist.
but,
I have never found a black mongoloid.. even when one of the parents are black..
I mean, a black skinned guy with small eyes and a Chinese nose!!
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.....

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I used to think being estranged doesnt happen to me.
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That things I do.

Yes, things are going real tough.

There used to be a point in life when everything I did was wrong. Or rather, gave bad results. Or rather, the results I didnt want. Those were the times when I felt bad, for obvious reasons. Time has passed by, and Those times have changed into times when majority of what I do became wrong. I thought the worst times were over.

I was wrong even in that small thought.
Things are getting tougher, and I guess I am going through the toughest. Strange, I am not breaking down, nor am I resorting to alcohol. I know things are the worst. I am not afraid at all.

its not because I have become courageous. Not that I am strong. I am a weak hearted sensitive person.

I just dont have to try hard and struggle to hit the end of the tunnel, for the tunnel is closed at both ends.

All I have to do is sit, and wait. If I get out or not, I will die one day.
period.

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People say a little smile can change the world.

Smile or no smile,
courtesy or no courtesy,
Global warming or no warming.
Everyone meets the same fate.

Why do you have to change the world, anyway?

Shiny, dark thoughts.

shiny dots of white,
little whispers of night

shiny drops of tears,
little cries of night

shiny pieces of glitter,
little fears of night

shiny metal balls,
little squeaks of night

shiny shine of my eyes
and a little glimpse of my future.

Da bucket list !

Yes, this is motivated by that movie. But its high time that I have my own bucket list, since it has been some time that I wonder as nothing seemed to make me happy at all. Yes, I want to do these things. Some are abbreviated, and I do not intend at any cost to explain them.. :P --

And yes, NOT in the order of priority.

1)TSM
2)Climb da everest.
3)Visit all wonders of all times.
4)Win an International Robotics Event.
5)North Pole and South Pole.- Visit them.
6)Bungee Jump
7)Go African Safari
8)Learn Sax
9)Play in a Band.
10)Spend a week on a cruise ship
11)Sail my own Yatch
12)Scuba dive
13)Parachute !!!
14)Visit Keck Observatories, watch Jupiter and Saturn.
15)Pose for a photograph with a Kangaroo with a baby in his pocket..
16)Watch at least 3 F1 races live
17)Be there at the finals of a world cup football
18)Watch metallica performing live
19)Watch Led zepp band members live(if they play again)
20)Drive at 200kmph
21)Fly on a supersonic plane.
22)Spend a night at the Sahara Desert in a tent, alone.
23)Watch a rocket launch, as close as possible.
24)Spend 2 months, driving my car, to all states in India.
25)FWOAR.

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Yes, the list shows how selfish I am ! Not one line which has a benefit to others ! So F What !

:P:P

Its high time that I start spending time for myself !

Remember.

.tears rolled down leaving shiny wet trails on the smooth pink cheeks of this beautiful sixteen year old girl.

.she had a heartbreak.

.she believes no one loves her.

.she got only 6 cards on valentine's day.

.And on the other side of the road, at the entrance of this crowded shopping mall, the girl in the blue and black uniform smiles at every person who enters through the security check.

.She was dark, a bit overweight, short.

.She feeds a family of five.

.God must be IS crazy.

New Year

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As usual.

The curse is still going strong.

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Celebrations

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I have started to hate celebrations.

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