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I recently realised i am not that understanding a person.

I still cant understand many things people do.

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Rain In the wind and sun.

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Not every rain comes with a thunder.

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Some clean you up. Clean your mind and soul.

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Some leave your shirt with dirt and mud.

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All depends on where you stand, when it rains.

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grrrr. (Just could not think of a good title.)

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Nothing lasts for ever.

Well, thats the best part of life. If it did, life would have been boring.

real boring.

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Stupid little boxes.

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Yes.

They may not be stupid. But they have tiny switches on them. Yes, with number on it. With speakers on it. I have started to hate this stupid little thing. I have been using them since 98. Yes, I was once proud that I was one of the very few users of mobile phone in calicut when this thing launched.

It was useless then too. Since I was mobile, people could reach me. The antenna of the phone would stick out of the pocket. That was a status symbol. And at one point of time, I was the only one who had a mobile phone in my entire college !!!

Well, that was more than 10 years back. I hardly used it. Outgoing was 12 rupee per minute, Incoming ans SMS were absolutely free. There was only one Service provider, escotel. Then came BPL mobile, and it was then incoming calls were charged.

The point of the post is not the history of mobile phones in calicut. I remember my school days. People didnt even have a land line at their homes. Still everything was working out well. We used to do everything that kids these days do. Yes, may be we could not record intimate moments of people making love. We could not send SMSs and MMS and tintumon jokes. We could not brag about the types of mobile phones each of us had. We could not watch porn on the phones. And I am very happy that we didnt do anything of these sorts then. We had better things to do.

Planing was simple. When we meet, we would say - next week, Sana hotel, 3.30 and everyone WILL be there. We would go to each others house. We were close. We were intimate. We were close to each other with friends. We didnt have time for loose talks. We played around, we travelled. We did not meet too many people, but what we had was enough.

Those were the best days.

Now, when I go with friends to have a coffee, four of us will be talking to someone on phone. By the time the bill come, we would have hardly talked. Everyone have thins thing glued on to each of their ears. People think we cant live without this. Well, even I had this thing glued to my ear for long. But i realised all the bad times I had was due to this stupid thing. Mobile phone have taken a toll on what i was. I am not what i used to be. I have become too pessimistic.

I have stopped carrying my phone these days. It was difficult. Too difficult. I want something to do when I wait for my food at the hotel. I normally eat alone. It was tough without the phone. If I had the phone, i would have called someone, and when I could not get a responce from the other side, i would feel bad. I would then accuse them for not picking up the call. The same thing they do when i dont pick the call.

Well, I am feeling far better. Even thoug it is just two days, I can live without it. I feel peaceful.

I am happy. Nothing is going wrong. I just need to be punctual. I need to use email. Things are getting better without the phone. The younger generation will disagree with me. They cannot live without it. Its because they will never know what they are missing. Because their relationships are mostly built over internet and phones, not in person.

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Solitude. Or may be loneliness.

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its when you befriend the cobweb littered ceiling and the ceiling fan rotating at different speeds.

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it WAS a time pass.

I was right.

The nothing.

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I WILL rebuild.

Like I always did

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No

More

Strings.

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It less painful and easy to break a thread when the other side doesnt want to hold.

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I thought so.

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